this is part two of my talk on centers, specifically for my inner circle – the porch people, vanguard mystery school crew, and those who’ve stayed with me at the church or came to oklahoma. i’m reflecting on moments of feeling truly alive and what it means to push past invisible boundaries.
i dive deep into my role as a catalyst – someone who gets paid to make people laugh or cry to help them feel alive again. i share stories about my trickster energy (esu), shadow work, and how my real shadow isn’t when i’m playful, but when i get all dressed up because that’s when i’m about to hurt feelings.
speaking from brazil, i explore the energetic differences between lands and how some places just hold different frequencies. i talk about the responsibility of being an energy reader who doesn’t just give readings, but embodies the energy to let people know they’re seen and safe.
the core message: freedom starts in your head, we all need people who will push us off cliffs so the net appears, and sometimes the most healing thing is remembering those belly laugh moments where we felt completely ourselves.
key moments/bullet points:
• bicycle freedom story – how we expand boundaries as kids but often get stuck on our “stoop” as adults
• the two rules for visitors – make friends with your shadow or i will, and do your own work
• oklahoma gathering observations – people trying to iron clothes the first few days before letting go
• catalyst website description – “i get paid to make people laugh or cry”
• esu/trickster energy revelation – consistent across all spiritual modalities i’ve studied
• shadow work redefinition – my shadow is getting dressed up, not being playful • cliff metaphor – taking people to the precipice and pushing them off so they find their net
• brazil foot washing story – profound moment of “honest work” that brought me to tears •
energy frequency comparison – u.s. vs brazil land vibrations and why i feel more at home here
• bamboo portal experience – driving through the canopy leaving the airport felt like entering another world
• movie watching cultural difference – brazilian friend laughing through serious film vs american analysis